the first time..

this is the first time i failed a subject.. woah.. yeahh.. i know.. there will always be a first time for everything.. but i really didnt expect this.. hmm.. whatever it is, i hope Allah will give me strength and guide me through these tough times..

i really want to take up medicine.. but, when reality strikes, i can feel it hitting me hard on the face.. it's easy to dream, easy to hope, but.... geez.. it's hard to make it a reality.. this is just the foundation.. i'm not sure if i can go through with the medicine degree.. trust me.. i want that course real bad.. but it'll be harder for me to see it slipping thorough my fingers if i get it but couldnt cope with it.. i'd better let it go with an all willing heart now.. i'm not giving up.. just not yet.. but, i know myself better.. i know i'll be too hurt to go through if i failed in med school.. i'll try my very best to achieve it.. but, i'm preparing myself to let it go.. "hope for the best, but be prepared for the worst".. my mum's words..

mak, ayah.. i'm sorry.. abg.. i'm sorry too.. yg.. i'm sorry.. :'( your hopes on me r too high.. i'm sorry if i cant make your dreams come true..