hope you'll read this..

abg, i really hope you'd read this..
yesterday was fun while it lasted..
but when the "horror" part came along..
i start to think of what will happen next,
and it somehow makes my mind cloud..

at first.. i was hoping that you'll end my "dating days"
and just get serious.. well, i know you're serious too..
but, deep inside, from the way you're acting lately,
i know you're just not ready.. we're both not ready..
not ready to let go of the young days we're having now..
i understand..

please dont get me wrong..
but i think we should start making things right..
start following the blessed way.. HIS way..
well, u've already ruled out the "going out" part..
mybe we should try the hard, & probably suffering "not contacting" part?
i dont know.. maybe i'll be the first one to give up..
and go back to texting you all day..
but ntah.. this phrase somehow made me think a lot..
"Indahnya ketika dua orang saling rindu, namun tidak berkomunikasi, tetapi keduanya saling mendoakan di dalam sujudnya masing-masing"

you know how bad i overthink kan? huhu..
it's just that, i dont want this to last for only now..
i want us to last for then, n later.. :)p/s: that guy looks like you from behind.. :P
p/s p/s : you know how much i love you.. :')