i never realized..

today is the day..
the day where all my friends who will be taking up medic & dentistry find out whether or not, they will enroll into the respective Kuliyyah starting this September..
Alhamdulillah, Pieja, Amir, Piqah, Asilah & Aizul were accepted..
congratulations!! :D
eventhough some are not accepted, I hope they're okay.. :)

hmm..
when I stepped into CFS, my aim was to strive for medic..
my aim was to score 4.00 and change courses..
my aim was to be a doctor one day, a good one, a cardiologist..

but then, things change..
reality sank in..
i tried to change courses during taaruf week..
but my SPM results werent strong enough to pull me through..
then i tried again at the end if the 1st semester..
but i guess it was fate.. i couldnt convince the HOD of Chemistry like i did to the HOD of Biology..

then, getting above 3.5 was harder than planning it..
seeing my results maintain at an average of 3.2,
i just had to accept that maybe this is not meant for me..
maybe i'm not meant to be a doctor..

and so i accepted the fact..
and make amends with the course that has been with me since day one..
ALLIED HEALTH SCIENCES....
at first dietetics.. then optometry..
but now, i guess i'll just go with the flow..
que cera cera, what ever will be, will be..
so i thought i did..

just now, i just wanted to see who got into those Kuliyyahs..
then there was a huge CONGRATULATIONS! for them..
then it struck me..
now, it's official..
i won't be taking up medicine..
i won't be a doctor..
i won't be a cardiologist..
PERIOD.. :O

oh well, optometry isn't that bad.. :)
i'll accept whatever He has planned for me, inshaAllah..